Happy Birthday Amy and Mason!
So it’s the end of another year! And soon it will be another decade as well! How the time flies when you aren’t paying attention.
I have been under the financial fog of gloom that permeates the bones and makes you want to seek your bed and refuse to deal with reality. The fact that there are more bills than money and it is only going to get worse – before it gets better. In order to have a job you need to pay the employer some of your salary in addition to paying for health care at a reduced level of comfort – more money for more services and especially more money for the scripts which are one of the biggest costs of living through chemistry.
But as they say, you have a job! And that in a nutshell is the good. You can pay for things and even though you feel you have cut back- you can once again look at things and cut back even more – wear more sweaters and socks – forget the heat at a reasonable temp – but stay healthy!
And so it is that I have paid all the current bills- eliminated as many expenses as possible – and still is running short each month. Oh well! Somehow we will make it through- can’t figure it all out at once- I just walked out of the fog and took charge of my life once again. One day at a time-
Himself is doing better emotionally and getting worse physically. But that was to be expected – we have not discovered a cure – a remission factor or something that allows him to remain at the same spot without changes. After all life doesn’t allow for that either- we are just surprised when we realize how much we have changed and who we have become.
It’s the time when people make resolutions to do good things - why not do those all year? Why only as a number changes on a calendar and on all legal documents throughout the world? What made the first day so important? We don’t really change… the celebration is often only a drunken time for people. The football games are good for the men who want little to do with their families and another reason to drink and party. We seem to be conscious of only partying at this time of the year – from pre-Christmas parties right through New Year’s Day celebrations. I guess we look at it as a time to be released from our normal duties and engage in different activities that border on fun and good times.
Back to that financial fog that envelops me. Is it only me that gets hit with the sense of not wanting to deal with all this? Am I the only one who has not grown up and taken on all the responsibilities as an adult? Is there anyone else who meets all the other duties each day and then is overwhelmed when you cannot pay the bills and are suddenly getting squeaky noises from creditors and know that you are doing your best and can’t see an answer in sight? Guess it’s only me.
Happy New Year – I’m going to work on my adult time- maybe an hour or two a day! Until then I am off to do the everyday things that call to me and it only gets better each day!
