There is a light snow falling outside – it looks like a movie – not real! Too much media for these eyes! Cold and continued cold – it’s January in Michigan – get use to it! OMG- it’s been over 60 years and it really does vary – “seasonably cold” is what the weatherman is saying on TV! 20s and then the teens! OK – it is January!
Foster puppies and animals from the Humane Society for six weeks to acclimate them to being with family! WOW – always a new scheme – new way of dealing! This is pretty cool for people who can only have animals for a short time – but any real lover - well – how can they give the dog or cat back?
Auto Show is Detroit – it’s the yearly event that I remember attending with my grandfather so many years ago. He took my brother and I and we walked around and saw the vehicles on display. It was nothing like it is today! No screens – no technology – revolving turntable and talking model versed on the car. That was the magic! We – or I have not attended in many years! I have no desire to go! The last time I went to the Auto Show I was roughly attacked by my date on the way home – so I got out of the car and walked; and then stalked by him for several months! Guess – it changed my attitude toward the event. Forgot that --- let it slip into the background and didn’t realize how it really had effected my life.
John Paul II will receive beatification in May because of the complete remission for a nun who suffered from Parkinson’s. I told John we need to be the miracle that makes John Paul II a saint- or Solanus Casey – we weren’t sure if he has received sainthood – but that I can check on the Internet. No it seems they are still working on his beatification – he was such a powerful man of prayer in Detroit- even my husband’s family went to him and believed in the power of him - helping to save his mom from TB.
For one moment this morning I believed that we could still fulfill our dreams and create an educational center. I believed that we could live our lives as we did and not as we have been during the past few years! A miracle- I believed in a miracle and that it was possible and we could make money and movies have vacations and travel and all the dreams once again were real!
For a moment this morning I believed that he didn’t have to sleep for 16-18 hours daily – need help with everything – that he could be independent and happy – and whole! For a moment I saw my partner as my partner and not someone who just needs me to console him when he is afraid from unknown sounds, clean when needed or making him food and cleaning up after. For a moment I saw us doing more than eating, bathing, dressing and sleeping – and then going to doctor’s appointments and returning home tired. We need more in our life- but when I try to introduce it – he goes along for a moment and then reverts to the original script. This makes it difficult some days and horrendous others because of wishes that go unfulfilled. So, if I accept rather than try to change- if I let it be another thing that flows off rather than ruffles- I can get through the moment and then the day!
I still want so much for him and us! I used to fight for it – and I’ve lost some of the energy- I have no way to re-energize! I need to find that again!
Miracles – Marianne Williamson talks about them like they are everyday occurrences- I want to believe the same!
MIRACLE -noun
A surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency : the miracle of rising from the grave.
• a highly improbable or extraordinary event, development, or accomplishment that brings very welcome consequences : it was a miracle that more people hadn't been killed or injured [as adj. ] : a miracle drug.
• an amazing product or achievement, or an outstanding example of something : a machine which was a miracle of design.
ORIGIN Middle English : via Old French from Latin miraculum ‘object of wonder,’ from mirari ‘to wonder,’ from mirus ‘wonderful.’
WONDERFUL! That is how I will look at the snow, sun and cold! Wonderful, is how I will see my husband, whom I love despite the challenges and setbacks we encounter. So – another day and another opportunity to try and get it right!
"Being relaxed, at peace with yourself, confident, emotionally neutral, loose, and free-floating- these are the keys to successful performance in almost everything you do." - Dr. Wayne Dyer
